i hope this will be the last time. i am tired of these scenarios. i'm tired bringing back this sh*t into my system. the last time i felt this, seriously, i was severely depressed to the point that i've done some things which later i regret, and some are not. am i destined to be like this? :(

he's with me for quite some time now. and i can say, that he is definitely part of my life now. pero simula pa lang, parang it was all wrong. parang ayaw ng lahat ng aspeto ng buhay namin ung relationship and closeness namin sa isa't isa. but we're both hard-headed and still moved that something to the higher level. at first, well, simula pa lang.. magulo na. it was like we're both at the end of each other's opposite minds. our likes don't meet. we have different insight on something which probably the start of an argument. but we pushed it through. we felt na we can do this. we can surpass it. but no. we can't.

all the arguments turned into fights into something we know we don't like and can't agree on. but still, we pushed through.

we may have different outlook on many things, one thing in common. we were crazy about each other.

but it seems like it's not enough.

later this day, we have the most complex fight. we both said some things which are not so appropriate. we said some things that we know that can end it. and i know i can't let it end.

everyday, i asks myself.. "bakit kasi hindi mo siya maiwan? tignan mo, lagi na lang ganyan. nasstress ka na ng sobra."

but instead, my heart answers all the questions.

because his hands that can comfort you whenever you want to cry and give up.
because his eyes that can make you feel that you have someone on your side for the rest of your life.
because his kisses that can melt you and feel the love all over again.
because his hugs that can feel you that he can protect you from all the badness of the world.
because his love can make you forget the bad memories, but instead gives you happy ones.

i never regret loving him.
and never will :(